Holy Crap!!!! Has it been over a month since I’ve posted last? Time has passed so quickly lately. For those of you wondering where the post have been, let me set you mind at ease. It isn’t because I gave up. It’s not because I’m down and out about about myself. It’s not because I am in a bad place. The time between posts has been for good reason.
For those of you who know, in my spare time I host two podcasts. and the month of march has been so big for both This Freakin Show & Just Freakin Wrestlin. The views and popularity of my shows have grown better than i could have imagined. We opened an online store to sell merchandise. And with JFW, we are developing more partnerships with Wrestling Companies & wrestlers. It’s has taken a lot of my time away from this journal and my journey.
Luckily, with this success, I have been able to take to positive from this and help me personally too. It took much longer than wanting to, but I’ve finally got my mind clear and found a place of acceptance on “friendships”, or lack there of.
I have put too much effort into the wrong things and the wrong people. People who I thought were meant to be in my life to better, were actually in my life to better theirs. And that may sound odd or egotistical like my life some how betters other. But live the life I live with the people who come and go and tell me I’m wrong.
I’m not going to change who I am because of experiences I have had over the last year. I can only try so much, before trying starts to feel like a waste. tomorrows keep coming and the sun is still rising. as 2019 moves forward, so will I. I’m going to be 30 this year, high school is over and I am ok with goodbye being goodbye without having to say it.
It’s been such a long time where I can lay down to sleep with out checking off everything I need to worry about. I stress myself out too much over things that can’t be fixed instantly. time to focus on whats important once again: my health, my family, and my life.
Too many things are changing lately, and my journey needs to not be one of them. I know what I have to do and with the news weather and new support in my life, I’m ready to hit it head on.
Special shout out to a few amazing people in my life currently who I know I can count on in one way or another.
Jackie Biggs – one of the best guest I ever had on my podcast and become a good friend through some messed up moments in my life recently. Plus, she is the queen of Keto and I know I can turn to her with almost anything.
Stephanie Johnson – Doesn’t matter how crappy my day is, her goofiness makes me smile so much lately. I’m happy we started talking and hope to hang out soon
Dana Belske – she will tell you I’ve helped her so much through a lot. But I can honestly say I have done nothing nearly what she has done for me. I’m not a good friend too often, but she still sees the good in me. And it’s friend like her that show me how much I should be appreciated.
Shalmar & Nene – if it wasn’t for you 2 at work, there is no way I would be able to stay in check. You guilt me so much…. but it’s in a very good way. And thank you for pushing me to do the Polar Plunge. It was a great experience to go through once.
Ashley – You moving away fucking killed me. But you need to do what you have to for you. No matter how far you move away from me, I know how supportive you will be in whatever i do. So lucky to have a sister like you.
Mom – If it wasn’t for you, I would have achieved absolutely nothing since last January. It don’t matter if it’s a bribe for a trip, getting a membership at the gym, calling me out on what I eat, or encourage me not to quit on my self; you push me to be the absolute best I can be.
There are so many of you out there who believe in me and I don’t want you to think i forgot about you.
Because of you all, I know for certain, I am not alone in this. Now, time to get my head out of my ass and get shit done.
Accountability & Progress